It's been a long time coming, but turning dreams into reality has become the norm for me. It has taken quite a bit of time to finish school, raise children and heal while moving on from narcissistic abuse. Yet I have accomplished all that I set out to accomplish. I would hate to convey that it was simple and easy as 1,2,3, but there were times when I had to find a way to push myself and hard.
After graduating I fell into a fog of information overload. For awhile my anxiety was on high alert because i couldn't think clearly. Stepping back and using the tools I've learned along the way allowed me to find my way out. I stumbled into my first job as a videographer and always wondered If I was good enough. Yet it has steadily increased as time goes on. Then I became a host for bar trivia and had the best time of my life! When you are able to do what you love it never feels like work. Being behind the camera has become a joy to me and it shows.
The transfer from survival to thriving mode can be difficult. It's the drive and dedication that brings transformation. Many do give up and walk away but finding strength to continue is completely up to us. Each day we wake up and make decisions about our own futures that can either bring life, or take it away. These are personal decisions that no one can make for you. Your boundaries are your boundaries.
Looking back over my own journey, I am grateful to have come this far. I realize that many do not make it. Surviving abuse and healing through trauma is not an easy path. It is not the path you would want for anyone to take. For those of us who were forced to be on it, the goal is to help others through it by discussing it. With the state of the world today we realize the influx of persons who are in survival mode.
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